In memory of Will

I've avoided posting anything on my blog the last couple of days. I knew that I would have to make this post before I could post any other's and I simply didn't want to have to do it.

We lost a friend of ours over the weekend, Will Spencer. He died when he rolled his truck coming home Friday night. I think that Aaron and I are still in shock from it. No one in our circle has died before and it just doesn't seem right that someone who was only 33 was taken. That's only a year older than me.

I wasn't close to him. I'm not gonna lie and say we were the best of friends because I didn't know him like that. But on more than one occasion Will sat with me letting me talk and cry about my brother Jason. Once he sat with me for 4 hours. I remember that specifically because I thought, why in the heck did he sit with me for so long when everyone else was inside having a good time? Because that is the kind of person he was. And you don't forget a person who does something like that for you.

I was so upset all day Saturday. I couldn't understand why when I didn't know him that well. I think part of it was the fact that he died in a car accident like Jason....part of it was that his daughter Katie is only 10 and that is how old I was when my dad died in a car accident....part of it because I am going to miss Will. No doubt about it, I will miss him. I can only imagine what those who knew him well are going through. I feel so bad for his family, the rest of his friends and most of all, his children.

I wish that I could find better words...make this a really great tribute. These are the only words I know, but they are true. I think that all of us fall into the habit of taking things for granted. Losing someone like this makes you really appreciate what you have and what God blesses you with everyday. I would much rather have Will here than to go through this lesson. But at least I can walk away with it in my heart and go from here. That's all I can do.

Me & Will 2006


You can shed tears that he is gone,
Or you can smile because he lived,
You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back,
Or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see him
Or you can be full of the love that you shared,
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember him and only that he is gone
Or you can cherish his memory and let it live on,
You can cry and close your mind be empty and turn your back,
Or you can do what he would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.